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When Love Is Complicated

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So, a number of my friends have been going through a lot of breakdowns in a very touchy area of our lives: Relationships
A friend of mine shared something in one of our Bible studies that reminded me of something that I’ve been thinking about for some time. He said something about all of us being humans and that everybody is bound to hurt you - no one is perfect but we have to rise above that. I believe that is true.

Sometimes we go through a lot of hell before finding the one for us.


Sometimes you think you've found The One and then later you realize it was just a false call.

It brings a lot of heartache and pain. Sometimes hate. When you've been with someone for a longer period of time then yeah,  its intense. 

Many people can promise you they won’t let you drown,  yet you find yourself underwater - and sad part is you can't even swim!

What about when you had a crush on someone? A crush that gave you sleepless nights? A crush that turned your whole world around? At some point in time, you kinda went past that. You almost were more than just crushes. Almost. Almost doesn't count (Brandy said that before). Some issues cause you to stop whatever was going on, something makes it an 'almost situation' between you two - it could be a bad habit of theirs; realizing you could never be with them even if you wanted to; you losing interest in them or maybe someone else came into the picture. 
Do you stay in that spot and sulk over it? Do you continue losing sleep over them? I don't think so. You do mourn whatever could've been. You do let yourself get your head over something that never/almost was but you don't stay there for too long. You have to pick yourself up - hey, there might be someone new around the corner, how do they see you when you're all covered up in dust like that? Shake it off.

Me trying to get over someone I never dated

I had a huge crush on a school mate one time, for like 2 years. Just one look at him and you automatically start praising God - his face, like food! The chemistry we had was great, we could talk about anything and everything. I'd be having such a bad day and just looking at this guy would make it all irrelevant. I was in this little bubble floating on air...I was on cloud 9
Anyway, this guy and I didn't make it LOL he fell for another person and it hurt. Both of them happened to be people I knew so imagine having to deal with that BUT it wasn't the end of my life. In fact, I decided to be happy for them - you lose nothing. The moment you accept something, I find that a weight of that burden is lifted off your shoulders. You are able to handle things in a much better state.

I couldn't stay mad at him for deciding to be with someone else and I couldn’t stay mad at the girl for taking my ‘spot’ because, what if there was no spot? I just was not right for him at the time and him for me. I figured it happened for a reason. I figured there must be something better in store for me. If God had the given me a preview of such a fine young Man, to let me feel those things I felt - imagine what he had planned for me?! He must have something much better than this. I am the apple of His eye after all. I am sure He had something for me that would make me look back and say “thank you Lord for letting me get past all that”. That guy was good for someone else and too bad it wasn't me. The best thing for me to do was to learn from that.

It all comes down to your pride, You are more than your pride. When you rise above that you overcome a lot of things.



At the time I was in my little bubble, everything was rainbows and butterflies so reason doesn't come easily - everything that person does is cute.
Why not ask God to show you?  Better yet,  ask the person to tell you what they want and need - you might find along the way that they are not for you.
"when a person shows you who they are, believe them" - Maya Angelou
Do not sugarcoat it,  take it as it is.  It'll save you so much and in the end, you respect them for it.
People show us their true colors all the time, sometimes we don’t even need to ask them BUT we make excuses for them.

When you meet the one for you, you will know it, deep down in your gut. You don't have to go around getting people to assure you. You don’t have to question yourself every time.
Sometimes we crush so hard on someone that we confuse it for Love.
Sometimes it’s just you being in-love with the idea of being in-love with someone.
Sometimes it’s just plain infatuation.

Sometimes we do meet that love but we are not entirely ready for them, Or they are not entirely ready for us - we need to let God tweak us a little more. Rejection hurts but it is a blessing. Not everyone you connect with is meant to be with you.
Sometimes we are ready for love but love is not ready for us so we need to let go and let God.

I can't define love but I know that when you have it, it feels like home. You know you’re where you are supposed to be.
You know you can have something else, go anywhere and get something more exciting and attractive but you choose to stay because deep down you know that what you have there is more than enough for you. 
You are safe with them. You know your heart is safe.  On a rainy day or a sunny day, you know home is the place for you. Why?  Because God is love and God is home for us.
When you find that love, it doesn’t feel strange - it’s a familiar place. A place you’ve been to before. When you find that Love it feels like you’ve known them forever. It’s like your soul says “oh there you are. I’ve been looking all over for you”.

God is our first true and unconditional love. The way he loves us is like no other so when you find that love, it’s a familiar place because you are reminded of God’s love for you - the love that will always be there through thick and thin.
The love that protects you,
The love that looks out for you,
The love that nourishes you,
The love that makes you a better person,
The love that breaks down all barriers and you actually let it do so,
The love that enables you to let go of everything else - all the pain, hurt and bitterness because you’ve found that one thing you want to hold on to. 
The love that enables you to love and bless others even when you are doing absolutely nothing.
The love that accepts every part of you, leaving no room for insecurities - It fills you up.
That love that draws you back to God because that is where you belong.
You know that you’re finally home...and you know they are home too.

Hyacintha
xoxo

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